its the time of night, where my synapses are so slow to react that my brain starts to interpret sound as slower than what it actually is. do you know what i mean?
like sonically, im listening to two slow dancers, cause its a mitski kinda night. and i know the tempo of this song, i know its a slow song, but its like my brain said to my ears okay now interpret everything at 0.75x speed, you know?
im so tired. i feel at once like i ought to rise to the occasion and apply for university - fling myself unequivocally into investing in my own future. i mean, it's my future - so why am i so unexcited by any of it?
i know applications are but a means to an end, but i am struggling to see the potential in that end, i am struggling to really get excited. granted, that may be because my brain can't process anything or that it's 4.42am, and i just tried to do sat practice math and completely flunked the test. but, still. its not easy to get excited about university for me. maybe i will soon.
i wanted to write a post about the body, but i'll do that tomorrow.